August 22nd 2015

I called into work, since i couldn't even get any sleep, left arm now is bothering me more than my right.
Also found out i dislocated my left shoulder somehow, only time i can remember a pain like that
was years ago at Spectrum (now golds gym) the swinging motion while i was still holding the dumbbell
is what propped it somewhat back in, (not 100%). literally felt like someone for a instant cut my arm off and re-attached it. Winging scapula, dislocated shoulder, slight muscle tendon tear(?) or w/e the Dr said was wrong with my left bicep, is too much. I can't wait for bionic parts/augmented reality.
Dr. says there's no need for surgery, well shit, im 28, im falling apart both in the inside and out.
The physical body, metaphysical body, and mind, are a three-way street that is being eradicated by
this fabricated system which we live in.

Emotional stress does affect the body, that's what im come to learn the hard way.
My heart craves love, the spiritual type, but this system is trying to pull me in,
Trying to pull me into the fold the flocking way of life.
They want to destroy true individualism, and individual thought etc.
And want everyone to think as the same, do as the same, have fun as the same.
And and anything that which isn't the same in their system is "Crazy", "Freak" etc etc.